Chapter IV:Bound For Glory

Quote of the month:"Respect my dear friend isn't won in my world...Respect is earned......."

Song of the month:Metallica – The Unforgiven

How’s life friends ? April is by far,my favourite month right now for it had some memorable moments for me such as changing my age, solving unfinished business with some people, reliving the nostalgia of how me and my oldest friends used to hang out, comparing it to how I’m doing right now, and putting over new friends which are now part of my world. Changing of seasons is here,right now!

Part 1: 2x10

April fools became kind of stale for the past couple of years, reason why April 1st isn’t that memorable for me anymore...Instead we have April 2nd where it’s my birthday, and this year I turned 20 years old. Not as depresive as most people feel at this age, in fact I loved turning to this new era because I treated it more like a milestone, than a reason to worry about dying faster (which is retarded in my opinion). Sure, I had a fear inside me about dying, but slowly I started forgetting about this problem and focus on having a wonderful life.
            My birthday on the other hand,was a bit weird. Once I turned 20 I started headbanging on Metallica of joy for 1 straight hour. The rest of the day was kind of usual to be honest. I mean aside the fact that I had the chance to eat a delicious cake made by Mama Melvin, and watch on awesome sports entertainment Pay-Per-View event with one of my best friends Alex (Micu’), the day looked like any other. Still it was a very rewarding day for me,since I had around 200 spam messages on my facebook account with friends wishing me a happy birthday, recieved endless phone calls/text messages, and got some cool presents in cash and a Metallica “...And Justice For All” T-shirt. And of course the PPV which was worth every penny. What’s even weirder is that after my birthday,the next several days became even more amazing,like every day was my birthday,only that more and more improved.
             I celebrated my birthday 1 week later at my favourite bar ”The Old Irish Pub” with 5 of my all-time best friends: Alex(0),Alex(Micu’),Christian,Cipry and Cristina. Sure they should have been 12 invited people,but as always at every birthday of mine,issues appear. Nevertheless it was a night none of us would ever forget,with so much fun,laughter and funny memories to store in the celebration, which it is all about after all. Then we got to the next several days in the easter season, where me and my friends had a great time either roaming all over the city, enjoy gossiping or making parodies after some other people who deserved it, or simply hang out at the front of any our houses revisiting past moments. It was a bit nostalgic for me, not in a bad way, but it bringed back amazing memories of how people like me,Alex,Alex(Micu’),Marius,Christian and Sabin used to be as kids, and now nearly everyone of us 20+ years and we could still do all that stuff.This ”blast to the past” as I like to call it was a great experience for me and it is one of the main reasons why I wish our friendship with each other to be endless. Without my friends I feel like an empty shell, but with my friends, no matter if I’m 2x10 years old or more, I feel like the title of this blog:”The King of my World”  and for that I want to thank them from the bottom of my heart.

Part II:The Unforgiven

Due to the post's length and being a bit burned out of ideas I can't do the motivating talk this time.Sorry,I’ll make it up for you next month,but what I can do now, is to link a video with lyrics and tell the story of my childhood up until now,in one world-wide known song. This song (well,except for the last 3 verses because I’m not an old man yet). It’s a beautiful piece of music & one of my favourite all-time songs I warmly recommend to everyone to listen and more importantly read the lyrics,because they can actually reflect you as a person as well as it suited me,so…..Enjoy!

Part III: Loose ends

                Okay,this will be huge. So grab some popcorn. While I loved the first half of April, I can definatly say the second was a mix of sacrifices and promotions when it comes to where some of my newer friends trully stand for. I mean, it was very weird, starting with the sacrifice of a great friend whom I defended last month from some houligans (yeah, Alina). The story began in the easter period when we met after a long time and had our usual chatter about life,how we used to be and sarcasm. She was literally my best female classmate, and looked like she changed into a better person that until, we met again later that night with 2 other classmates and she basicly got back to her own selfish self she used to be. Nevertheless, I would still respect her as a friend. But then Saint Anger came back to life...

Earlier that month I made an announcement about  hosting a class reunion, and it was going on pretty fine up until April 17th, when while I was studying at maths I got 4-5 text messages/calls from 4 different people who each took their own shot and said that they already planned something with the class in the same period. Disgusted, I chose to cancel my event and let them fight for the ”Organizer” title. Once, I cancelled the event on facebook, my dear Alina messaged me to calm down because there is only one reunion taking place today, and there is only a few people. She was supposed to be my personal emmisary. I asked her if she is honestly coming, and she told me that she will come because she can’t extend her vacation for the whole week. Frustrated, I chose to grin my teeth and at least try to meet some of my ex-mates and feel good. Not even 10 minutes after that I got a call from Robert and he told me that the real reunion is taking place the next day and that Alina isn’t coming today. That call completely ticked me off. Careless, I still went to meet the only 2 ex-mates who were attending the original  ”meeting”,Flory and Anca, with whom I haven’t talked for a long time and I really wanted to see again. During our sight-seeing, I spotted Alina with her best friend hanging around without seeing me, which confirmed the fact that she lied to me(something I can’t stand from anyone). It was the exact same manner that she was doing  1 year ago when she was supposed to aid me when I was vulnerable, and made me had a fight with her for a lengthy period about it (not to mention in the meanwhile, Flory was criticizing me for being a smoker and not doing as many good deeds than I’m supposed to). All those problems every individual from that class had with me, were basicly remembered to me and all those things really got me extremely pissed and angry.But I had a master plan for the ”real reunion”...
               

First, I cursed the whole mother nature to rain the next day, thankfully, she listened to me this time. The next day I met with everyone and played the master manipulator with almost everyone of my mates (except for Flavius who didn’t had any problem with me and he was actually entertaining me). I started exposing each of my problems with each and every one of my mates, like drinking/smoking next to Flory noting that she is a straight-edge saviour and I told her I don’t need her help, or muting Robert’s dumb jokes with words of truth, or even annoying Simona(The Beast) until she begged for mercy because she started having migrenes. But most notably,I done something I never thought I would do to one of my best classmates: I completely ignored Alina and pretended she doesn’t even exist on this planet(Quick side-story: I told this plan to Robert and he never actually thought I would do this to her.Guess again...),I literally talked with everyone near her about their future at college and pass through her like a ghost. After the meeting I sarcasticly suspect everyone enjoyed on a rainy day and not at a grill in the sun, everyone waved goodbye, and I asked Robert to forgive me for being in such a mood. He was OK, but he didn’t saw the real side of why I am doing all this with everyone. Nevertheless I teached everyone to accept me as I am, except for Alina with whom I settled our differences for the very last time. It was the first time I would humilliate her and not even care, because lies told to me have a strong whiplash, and she saw it her skin. I told her that she didn’t changed at all, and she has severe issues with her ego, so until she gets through these problems and learn to say the easiest 3 words on the planet  ”I Am Sorry” I won’t have another word to share with her. She didn’t believed me. But now that I stand for my friends and myself, while she is still dumb enough to still figure it out what’s wrong with me, she may be sorry right now. What’s ironic is that now I don’t care what she thinks. I really didn’t wanted to do all that stuff, but I was forced to seal all those loose ends that were holding me back and finally be who I am and not act like I am 50% of a ”normal person”. Ironicly,I also had a dream of my ex-girlfriend who was also doing the same things. She was dead in the end...but for the first time ever,I thought it was alright...

A perfect example of how my friends should be with me is Andra. We started to sporadicly meet again and again and again in the second half of April, which made me happy, because she never liked me for being strong,handsome,rich or whatever. She considers me her best friend for one easy reason. I was being myself, and not some carbon modified version of what other people would like me to be. We never had fights, we never had issues with each other or if we did,we would we would talk about them, and she was the kind of those girls that no matter what would happen she would at least try and soothe me, reason with me, or even make me feel happier,just like a lullaby. Kudos to her for doing this, in return I still owe her like 910 forehead kisses (which I still have no f*****g idea how I am going to give them all in 5 months, but still:Challenge Accepted) and endless hugs she just adores. This girl knows me for like an year or so, and she easily reached in my rankings of an amazing friend in like 6 months, so...why can other people who want me to consider them that revered, do the same thing she does? And accept me for I am? It’s still a clouded situation with my ex-mates, but I am glad that at least I can say I have new friends like Andra that can top any of them with the greatest of ease. Without these loose ends now, I know there’s absolutely nothing holding me back right now, and feel so damn alive after a looooong time.This time,there are no more things holding me back...this time, I’m Bound For Glory.

Hope you like chapter #4,I lived for each moment in this month and I can say it was all in all  a great one for me. Incoming the fall of May is Chapter V: Living On The Edge which will cover the biggest party of the spring:The Amsterlypse. Again, thanks for reaching my blog and reading this story! Peace!

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A true friend is there once you can actually call their name and they're here