Quote of the month: "Sorry honey, I got better things to do, then to waste my hate on you.".
Songs of the month: Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
Good afternoon everyone! I can believe I actually managed to finish 3 chapters in 3-4 days, I can say one thing, it was exhausting. But you guys deserve them after I delayed you for so long that you probably thought I died (guess what, not yet). This will be the last post of the trifecta I'll post until the end of March. So enjoy this cute review about this month of love/ experience of how to win to show love.
Part I: Use the man (Step 1-4)
With the exam session over, I managed to get out of it alive and well, but still there was a lot of work to do for future faculty duties. All that aside, I made a new friend called Joana (Issa) who seemed to be weird enough to attract my attention. It all started during the session, the day after I took (and was a bit bummed about) the 2nd exam at Logic Design which was extremely hard to pass. Pissed off about every detail I wrote there, I went back to the college home, hellbent on getting drunk just to forget about everything. A neighbor from the same floor with me, David asked if I was up for a hubble-bubble at the girls room from 523. I thought, meh, got nothing to lose, why not? That's where I met Issa, a girl from the same year as mine, only that she was from the RO Automation section, while I was at EN Automation. Very calm human being, but power-drunk over wrecking stuff in her way. During the whole beauty of the Hookah, we got drunk to the point we started laying our head next to each other on the floor and started talking about ourselves. The next day wasn't too different, as she invited me to come watch a movie at her place, with the only requirement to bring a USB pen to store the movie then she even invited me to come home with her at the end of the session, or at least drive me to Sibiu. I even got drunk with her to the point we needed subtitles to talk, and the next day even though we were hung over, she was still very caring and helpful enough to remind me about giving me a hand with the road home. Very good friend for a start here in Cluj. I enjoyed all of her proposals, and done everything with a good laugh for the 2 of us.
1.Reaching home again, the first friend I met again the next day was Andra who just got back from school, and decided to take lunch with me. We relived those typical lovely moments during her visit at Melvin's. In a weird yet certain way we actually felt closer than usual, and that could only make me happier. With her leaving, the next day I had a nostalgic school visit, where I met all my classmates again since last summer, and made a rally to our former high-school to visit our former class master and math teacher. It was a really feel-good moment because the teachers were putting us over as former scholars who gone to reach a high star in their respective paths of their careers. After that we would run for a juice in a pub and remember some funny moments.
2.We get to February 14th, where I planed to shutdown systems once again, since it was going to be the 6th consecutive year of being single on Valentine's Day. I was even ranting about this day with Roxana who hated this day as well. Then it hit me, she hated this day, so did I... So why not make this day, our day? A Forever Alone Day? Without anymore thinking I tweeted about this day getting cool again. Little did I knew that Andra was extremely curious about who was going to be my valentine, while I kept silent and told her she's going to see soon enough.
3.Back to being the guy who's doing the cute stuff, I bought Roxana some tulips, met her after the Radu meditations, and she was surprised by the gesture and jumped into my arms of happiness. We then
3.Back to being the guy who's doing the cute stuff, I bought Roxana some tulips, met her after the Radu meditations, and she was surprised by the gesture and jumped into my arms of happiness. We then
went out for a grub and eat some pizza. She then proposed we should go for a movie later that night. Since it was free, I was alright with the idea, so we went to the cinema, met some other friends of mine/hers and moved forward to take seats, at 4 rows further I see 3 girls. There was Laura, Dana and Andra. That certainly wasn't the way I wanted them to learn about who my date was going to be that night (originally I was going to update the Facebook with this thing), but it actually turned out the way it did. Andra was quite surprised to see me there at the cinema, and next to Roxana. It got extremely embarrassing at middle of the movie when imitating the couple from the movie (yes it was a romance movie, called Sweet November), and simulated them kissing (like LOUD). She did that 10 times, and I begged for her to stop, because everyone right now is thinking we are actually kissing. End of the movie, sad twist of fate, all the girls were ready to cry, except Roxana who I cheered up to the point she could walk on strong. And finally led her to her personal driver, condolence hugged and goodbye.Arguably our best Valentine's/Forever Alone Day ever. The next day was great as well, we finally got to a concert at The Rock together, and banged our heads to the point we couldn't move our necks anymore. "Awesome" was raining all over bodies, so another condolence hug for that, then I was off to meet Flyvius and Alina, at the Old Irish Pub in the town (and Diana, Duda, Afri, and many many many others a little further in the same place).
4.Andra was a bit pissed by the fact I didn't came to cheer her up, when she needed me. And because she tried to use the man, we had a fight, but we reconcile after a few days, to resume some more history in our personal book.
Part II: Promises - A tale about 2 hearts (Step 5-7)
This will be a tale about 2 hearts. It is also inspired by Song of the month #2.
Let’s tell a story about 2 hearts that shouldn’t talk to
each other, who ended up ceasing to exist without each other.
5.Put it
this way, have you ever ended with someone who’s totally different than you,
who you for the sake of your friendship limit any point of evolution just to
keep yourself away from falling in love?
Well I did, and this all started when me and a great friend who somewhere down the road accepted to stay in a friendzone for the sake of our relationship to don’t deteriorate. She was and is an amazing human being, but we are 2 totally different human beings. People speak our names on the street in hushed tones, the stories they'd tell if anyone would listen…
Well I did, and this all started when me and a great friend who somewhere down the road accepted to stay in a friendzone for the sake of our relationship to don’t deteriorate. She was and is an amazing human being, but we are 2 totally different human beings. People speak our names on the street in hushed tones, the stories they'd tell if anyone would listen…
Let’s enumerate a few of them. She comes from
a place where you are not important unless you are actually needed for help or
a duty, while I come from a place where all hopes are driven to the mud,
because all dreams are slowly dying when you are promised something and don’t
receive. She is a person who can instantly foreshadow past bad memories, while
I am a person who gets scarred every time they occur. She hates most cats,
while I hate most people. But probably the most notable difference is the fact
that she loved loving, while I despised loving, because if I was to actually
love, I’d first want to be with someone for a long time, and really, really,
really like for some time. In spite of these differences, we would still be
great friends from the very beginning. We would start going out often, I would
often invite her to my place to kiss, hug, eat sweets, laugh, watch movies,
gossip, and dance. No sex, no kiss on the lips. She is also a girl that made me
break character and express to everyone in the world what feelings I had for
her, and how I almost fallen in love with her because of them. . All of these differences
were obviously getting is into so much fighting to get past the pearly
gates, but nobody ever wants to die or get saved for that matter.
6.Then the instabilities occurred. We started loving each other in a very weird way, though it took me 3 more months to tell her that I love her while she told me that, the moment I broken character. Sure it sounded pretty cute, but with existing love, comes bigger commitment. We started fighting more often, some of those fights lasted like forever until it was her turn to say how she feels, effectively leaving past incidents aside, while others were very short and easy to solve, no matter how childish they looked. I’ll now express what happened in our last fight that got so ugly, to the point we wanted to ignore each other’s existence once and for all.
After a childish fight we had because I didn’t hug her when she needed me, she had the nerve to block me on Facebook and that literally ticked me off, since I am a Facebook addict, and this fight got enhanced in a very ugly way. It made me realize that I really didn’t have anything to lose, that I wasted precious time with her. Instead of trying to make things better again, I asked myself, why bother? Why should I go back to someone who just wants to have an anomaly of a friendship? Why can’t I go out there and find a girl who has the same erotic needs that I also want? Why do I have to keep being with someone who makes sure there is a glass ceiling on top of our relationship? Why can’t I be with someone who can truly love me and actually deserve it? 1 day after that fight we had, the answer hit me in the form of a dream.
The dreamed portrait a sequel to
what happened after we fought. It was just like I wanted, I turned my back on
her, never looked back and moved on. But because of the abandon, she got so
hurt she literally had a heart attack and couldn’t make it before I could learn
about the event. That simple interpretation left me chill in pain. It seemed so
real, that if my heart was still alive, I knew it would surely break, because
she was special. The whole connection we had was special. This dream turned
into a nightmare made me wonder why I had to be born so heartless to the point
I made someone die without any remorse. I instantly woke up at 4:50 in the
morning, all sweaty and hurt so bad I couldn’t breathe. It was just a dream,
but it was one I didn’t want to come true, so I texted her in an instant that I
am terribly sorry for everything, and that I love her.
7.Later when I woke up pierced by conscience, I saw she added my back as a friend and asked if she can come to my place later that day. Relieved I said yes, and later we met again after 2 days of fighting. She was scared because of my look once I saw her. It surely wasn’t an angry glare, it was a look at her that made me realize she is real, awake, and alive. I then related the nightmare I had last night which was very painful for me to even talk about it and for the both of us to hear it. She then told me that I marked a big thing about her, because she really doesn’t have a good heart condition, while I was mortified to hear this from her. In the process, the nightmare turned out to be a vision. Some tears fallen after patching up the last event between us, but eventually we stopped crying, hugged and realized this was our shortest fight so far. Everything was back to “normal” again. After saying goodbye to her I was ready to go all aboard to my trip back to Cluj. In the bus, there was a lady who was pitting over someone she loved for passing away. In that right moment I made a vow to myself to keep this relationship with my great friend alive, no matter what happens. I don’t care if this relationship will sometime evolve, or retrograde, if this link dies, we will both be gone. And none of us wish for that to happen. And should something terrible happen, I will hold to this promise and make it up somehow.
Should I pass away, mark my words, my dear love. I will meet you in the next life, where we can be together, I’ll wait ‘till then in Heaven. I promise you.
7.Later when I woke up pierced by conscience, I saw she added my back as a friend and asked if she can come to my place later that day. Relieved I said yes, and later we met again after 2 days of fighting. She was scared because of my look once I saw her. It surely wasn’t an angry glare, it was a look at her that made me realize she is real, awake, and alive. I then related the nightmare I had last night which was very painful for me to even talk about it and for the both of us to hear it. She then told me that I marked a big thing about her, because she really doesn’t have a good heart condition, while I was mortified to hear this from her. In the process, the nightmare turned out to be a vision. Some tears fallen after patching up the last event between us, but eventually we stopped crying, hugged and realized this was our shortest fight so far. Everything was back to “normal” again. After saying goodbye to her I was ready to go all aboard to my trip back to Cluj. In the bus, there was a lady who was pitting over someone she loved for passing away. In that right moment I made a vow to myself to keep this relationship with my great friend alive, no matter what happens. I don’t care if this relationship will sometime evolve, or retrograde, if this link dies, we will both be gone. And none of us wish for that to happen. And should something terrible happen, I will hold to this promise and make it up somehow.
Should I pass away, mark my words, my dear love. I will meet you in the next life, where we can be together, I’ll wait ‘till then in Heaven. I promise you.
Part III: Cryptic writings lead to a great surprise (Step 8-10)
Reuniting with Adriana was marvelous for so many reasons. We met for the first time in 5 months to make a full review of what we've done in this whole time. This is one person I always enjoyed talking no matter how long it would it get. We talked about so many subjects: past relationships, music and the dark side behind it, our evolution in high-school, current issues with faculties, apocalypse, some gossip here and there, and how I started last year with this blog, and it's motivational approach, and some moral questions. Very great time with her, and a hug to wrap up everything before the next meeting.
8.Moving on, we had another great time at Melvin's with Andra. Her second visit was enhanced by the fact that we had an we patched things up after we had a fight a few days earlier. It was somewhat of a coincidence, that she bought me a rare chocolate while I bought her the same type to gift her. In a very weird way I loved the way we seemed closer than ever when we matched this lust for each other, and also watch the first Ace Ventura movie, laughing our guts out, hugging our guts out, kiss in an uncountable manner, but maybe the most essential of any of these, we started loving each other more than ever. She continuously teased me to come to her 18-year birthday, which was coming up on March 1st, but that would give me a lot of trouble, because of the road from Cluj to Slutina, the time (8-9 hours), and the schedule for the second semester, because I didn't had any guarantee that I will have the same matching conditions like in the first one. Nevertheless I would try my best and promise her to come, but things didn't turn out the way I wanted. I had one more lab to recuperate and that was on March 1st, which effectively compromised my return to Slutina for her. I just pray she'll appreciate the gift I made to her which will be precised in the last step.
After that was over I went for a stroll at the OHP, with long-time friend Micu' to have a little overview about how he's doing so far for his baccalaurete, I gave him some hands down for his progress so far, then suggested some tips of how to pass it easier. Then Diana and her friend Daniela walked by and surprised the both of us. From there it was all gossip and laughing at some songs we were hearing. They also pointed out some lame moments their respective teachers from their faculties had some absurd marking criteria on some other students, while I was criticizing the grading done by 3 of my own teachers from my faculty. Great fun nevertheless, we went out left our last words before seeing each other again.
9.Last day in Slutina was a real pain in the arse. I was literally farfetching myself from one friend to another to hug and say goodbye, almost like a farewell tour, only that everything happened in 1 day. I met Cipry and his boys/girls (Adelina, Nicu, Perry, Adi, Wall-E) then I met Christian and his brother Micu', all for the last words before I go. I returned to the masquerade ball and met Andra and Laura for one last city walk, already pointing out some deliriously funny moments with both of them when we were out to buy some pancakes. After that, we went out for some more laughing, I gave Laura a long awaited Scorpion Hug © before letting her go, then I led Andra to her home, while I was telling her about some Italian guy in his trip to Malta to gag around. We had one last stare at each other before hugging and that was that. Until we met again, nothing was too certain about her birthday if I could reach it in time.
Last one to visit was Roxana who surprised me with a pack of jelly bears for surviving the session. We had one last talk about certain things we follow to do this year. I encouraged her to keep her head up as always, and to pass all of her exams no matter what happens. I explained to her that the same success and glory I had last year with the whole exam run, I see the exact mirror image in her doing that without any problem. She is destined to success, just like I was last year. She was intrigued about my last words, and had one last Condolence Hug © to seal this deal. Then off I was to Cluj.
I talked with my roomies that I found a new room in the same floor to move and they had no problem with that, they even helped me with everything. The new roomies were in their Master years, and asked me a large number of questions to see what kind of person I am. After asking all of them correspondingly they thought I am a good guy, and offered help at diverse materials I was going to have in the second semester. I also reunited with Issa and laugh a little more over what we did in the vacation, before we would get ready for more worse yet to come: the second semester.
Thank you everyone for supporting me over the past months, with this last post I will complete the 3-pack. Can't say these Cryptic writings lead to a great surprise, but if you have the faith and power you will always succeed to get what you desperately desire, and with the photo of the month, I will complete the full 10 Steps To Someone's Heart, I really adored this whole time. Chapter XV: Estranged is up for grabs at the end of March, so see you then. Peace!
After that was over I went for a stroll at the OHP, with long-time friend Micu' to have a little overview about how he's doing so far for his baccalaurete, I gave him some hands down for his progress so far, then suggested some tips of how to pass it easier. Then Diana and her friend Daniela walked by and surprised the both of us. From there it was all gossip and laughing at some songs we were hearing. They also pointed out some lame moments their respective teachers from their faculties had some absurd marking criteria on some other students, while I was criticizing the grading done by 3 of my own teachers from my faculty. Great fun nevertheless, we went out left our last words before seeing each other again.
9.Last day in Slutina was a real pain in the arse. I was literally farfetching myself from one friend to another to hug and say goodbye, almost like a farewell tour, only that everything happened in 1 day. I met Cipry and his boys/girls (Adelina, Nicu, Perry, Adi, Wall-E) then I met Christian and his brother Micu', all for the last words before I go. I returned to the masquerade ball and met Andra and Laura for one last city walk, already pointing out some deliriously funny moments with both of them when we were out to buy some pancakes. After that, we went out for some more laughing, I gave Laura a long awaited Scorpion Hug © before letting her go, then I led Andra to her home, while I was telling her about some Italian guy in his trip to Malta to gag around. We had one last stare at each other before hugging and that was that. Until we met again, nothing was too certain about her birthday if I could reach it in time.
Last one to visit was Roxana who surprised me with a pack of jelly bears for surviving the session. We had one last talk about certain things we follow to do this year. I encouraged her to keep her head up as always, and to pass all of her exams no matter what happens. I explained to her that the same success and glory I had last year with the whole exam run, I see the exact mirror image in her doing that without any problem. She is destined to success, just like I was last year. She was intrigued about my last words, and had one last Condolence Hug © to seal this deal. Then off I was to Cluj.
I talked with my roomies that I found a new room in the same floor to move and they had no problem with that, they even helped me with everything. The new roomies were in their Master years, and asked me a large number of questions to see what kind of person I am. After asking all of them correspondingly they thought I am a good guy, and offered help at diverse materials I was going to have in the second semester. I also reunited with Issa and laugh a little more over what we did in the vacation, before we would get ready for more worse yet to come: the second semester.
Thank you everyone for supporting me over the past months, with this last post I will complete the 3-pack. Can't say these Cryptic writings lead to a great surprise, but if you have the faith and power you will always succeed to get what you desperately desire, and with the photo of the month, I will complete the full 10 Steps To Someone's Heart, I really adored this whole time. Chapter XV: Estranged is up for grabs at the end of March, so see you then. Peace!
10.Photo of the month:
Well:D You`ve done a great job here stranger:P
ReplyDeleteThank you :)
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